A Day That Words Can't Describe

     Today is really a day that not a single words could describe. It's really really just a super duper awesome day for me! For my whole life, to those girls i had ever chased, i can tell, i never hold a girl's hand, never had my first kiss or any other kisses on any part on my face, never went out with my ex girlfriends but all i ever did is, hug my last girlfriend before i go off to study.
     But today, it's very very special for me, i spend lots of time with the girl i really really do love and really really wanna chase, i hold her hands and she grabbed mine back tightly, it might be some normal or simply feelings for most of you guys out there, but for me, it's something really really special, cause i never experienced it before. But today, she cried again, at first she got very very silent, then i had a feeling that she's not feeling good and depressed already, then i went up to her, wanting to grab the keys and tell her that i wanna go down awhile, but then, when i look into her face, tears are dropping from her eyes, that moment my heart shrunk again. I was gonna go down to find ice cream for her, but at that very moment, i chose to stay back awhile, try my best to comfort her. But it doesn't work out the way i wanted it to, then i sat down by the side, being quite awhile, then i grab on the keys, went down and bought a big mug of ice cream for her, but when i reached her room, she wasn't inside, then i heard voice from the toilet, only then i know that she's taking her shower. So, i left her the ice cream, and wrote down a note, a note that wanna tell her that, hoping that the ice cream could cheer her up =). After that, i went home to take my bath, i bathed super fast that time, can be said the shortest time taken for me to bath for my whole life. Then after that, i took my bike with me, and rushed my way to her house again.    
     When i walked into her room, i see her eating that mug of ice cream, i felted comforted. But then, after awhile, she cried again, hiding her face from me, doesn't want me to look at her crying face while she's lying on her bed. I hugged her by her shoulders, tapping her head softly trying my best to cheer her up but things doesn't seems like working either. But i'm sure i know what's the reason she's crying for, even if she wanna hide it from me or doesn't wanna tell me, cause i know what is the only thing that will make her cry, and that's the only thing. Then i myself, got moody, seriously moody, cause for so long time, and so many effort that i've done, i still couldn't take over of the place of her last boyfriend. I hurts seriously, it's just like, a sharp blade that is pierce into my heart, i tell you, that's "Ouch!" alright. But then out of my expectation, she realized that i'm getting moody also, then she puts her hands on my eyes, asking me to close up my eyes, look up into her face while my eyes are closed, then suddenly, she kissed my forehead! I tell you, i almost flew off and bang the ceiling that time, but instead of letting that happened, i broke down in tears, grabbing hold of her, and seriously, i cried, for the very first time, in front of her. I doesn't felt embarrassed, i felt like, all my efforts every since the first day i've started chasing her, are all paid off, even more than i even worth it. I hugged her, thanked her, and told her with my mouth, for the first time, i said, I Love You to her. I felt great, and i hope she felt the same way too. Cause for my whole life, for 2 times i've coupled, i never get a kiss from my last girlfriends, this is my first time, and i wanna let the whole world know that, i appreciate it and i promise, i will do whatever i can, to touch her heart, to make her to be my girlfriend one day. I promised!

Today is the day

     Today, what i know is, i've almost spent my whole day with you. Since evening till now, that's a wow to me. Never thought i could stay till so late without getting bored. But honestly, every second that i'm with you, i doesn't felt bored at all. People might thought that i'm a hypocrite cause i said this but i know that this is the tryth, the fact that i myself know only. There's only 1 thing that strikes me most today, it's because you said 'Thank You' to me. Finally on this day, that you had felt the care that i wanna give to you, the love that i wanna show to you, the concern that i wanna give it to you, finally in this very day. You gave me a hug even without me knowing that you are gonna hug me, it was totally unexpected, but you did it, and whisper to my ears saying 'Thank You' to me. My heart shrunk, deep deep inside of me. Tears almost drop from my eyes, but i hold it, cause i don't wanna let you see me cry. But what i wanna say to you is that, thanks for accepting my companion, my presence, and my annoying attitude. I appreciate everything you did and i won't forget them. Thank you.

A Day That Is Hard To Forget

     Everything started off very well at first, you and I, just another normal day that we spent time together, chit chatting, playing and fooling around together. But then i remembered, suddenly I've gotten tired and I've fall asleep. After I'm awake, it was all pitch black around, what I really really wanna do that time, is just to tell you how much i really do care for you, how much i really wanna be with you, but what my heart wants, isn't the thing that my mouth allows me to do. I've tried opening my mouth, trying to let you know that i really really do love you, wanna tell you that i really really wish that you could be my girlfriend, but all that time, my mouth just wouldn't allow me to tell you that, I felt like a coward, like a talker in front of my friends, my friends thought that i can handle love stuffs very well, by the fact is that, i'm just another loser in my love life, and I admit it. But then after awhile, you've gotten quiet, i expected something's gonna happen, and my sense were right, you cried! When the very first time i heard you cry, my heart starts aching, I tried asking you what's wrong? But you just wouldn't wanna let me know about it, but i'm sure it's about 1 thing, and that 1 thing only can make you cried like that, nothing else could make you cry like this, that's why i'm sure with what i know about you. All i wanna do that time, is just to cheer you up with whatever i can do for you, being by your side? Lending you my shoulder? Giving you a hug? Telling you "it's alright"? I've did it all, and what i really wish to see in the result is, a smiling girl looking towards me, but even though you showed me that you're smiling, i'm sure there's still pain in you, that you're just using this smile on your face, to let me put down the worriness in me. But there's nothing much i can do, except all the above that i've done, your heart is still with him, i couldn't just snatch from him for myself, that's just being selfish. I've promised myself to respect you, to respect the choice you are gonna make, and by  accomplishing that, from the very first time i wanna tell you all those things just now, had already wiped off from my mind, in the very moment, all i wanna do is that i wanna be with you, staying in your presence, making you smile and not to cry again. As what i've promised, all i want to see, is a girl that is smiling always, and not a girl that cries for what had past.